What ifs

what if you looked for me when im away?

what if i am not what i think?

what if i replied that day?

what if i never really blinked?

what if my heart stopped racing?

what if i didn’t keep gazing?

what if i rushed too far?

what if you left me behind?

what if i got in the car?

what if it was all intertwined?

what if i learned to swim?

what if we both drowned despite?

i would still chose me,

i could be someone i meet,

you still wouldn’t come back,

my eyes would get dry,

you’d mourn my life,

my heart wouldn’t be satisfied,

i would escape your dreadful reply,

you’d find her back,

i don’t think you’d drive,

it’d still be a tearjerker,

i’d reach the horizon,

the water would feel nice.